I've got a friend who is a Instagram model with a 1.7m followers (her pregnancy isn't public, the Dad is our friend and they're having a boy - yay!) whose career is on the line seeing as she tripled her size and has really had a hard pregnancy in the fact that she's got acne, stretch marks and so on but pretty bad.

All of our friends keep asking me if I think she'll snap back (I'm the first of our friend group to recently have a baby so apparently I would know?) and I can't say for certain. But her career will take a slam. She's still posting photos to make it seem like she isn't pregnant. She's having a hard time. She's already booking in with LA cosmetic surgeons.

I also have had friends use a surrogate because they don't want to ruin their body. I used to scoff at them however I'm coming to see their reasoning.

Plain and simple: I have stretch marks, slightly saggy boobs, and dark circles under my eyes. I loved experiencing pregnancy, and I'm glad I did. But no way am I doing it again. Mentally and physically it was so hard. I had an easy pregnancy compared to most, but had an EMC.

So screw pregnancy. I want 3-5 lovely children to raise and care for. I want to be able to stand and walk to them without crying in pain for the first week. I'm gonna use a surrogate. I just still feel guilty, like I'll be judge for not enjoying and loving pregnancy.