My boyfriend & I have court tomorrow for 50-b violations. I have no idea if he’s even gonna show up, since he has an active warrant for a 3rd violation.

He’s been staying with his meth dealer and this creepy mofo has him CONVINCED he’s going to jail for 1-3 years and I’m not gonna even try to get him help with this 🙄.

He keeps him high and manipulates the fuck out of him. He will fix parts on his car and ask him if I’ve ever dropped $1500 on his car. Bitch if I had the money of course I would. Get the fuck outta here.

He goes back and forth with threatening suicide (he disappeared for 2 weeks without even asking about the dogs after saying he was going to kill himself). Claims he’s been in and out of the state running. Then he claims he’s going to have me arrested for filing a false police report (when he attacked me he said he was going to kill me, and dragged me to where his gun was— he claims the gun wasn’t there and he’s gonna make sure I go to jail for it 😒😒😒. Every police officer said IN THAT MOMENT of course I had every right to think I was gonna die since that WAS where he kept his gun, so.....)

I’ve seen WAY WORSE CASES and the man gets off on a joke of probation... I just hate how we can make a plan and agreement but once he’s around the meth dealer, it all goes to hell and he’s back to threatening me with stupid shit.

I will be there to support him, and tell the judge I just wish I knew ALL of the signs of addiction/relapse before I sought out legal help. Him going to the bathroom for an hour and coming back with slurred speech, and slumping over while in the middle of vacuuming was an obvious sign... but the obsessive all day fights, the anger, the paranoia and violence I didn’t realize was a part of it too... and if I could take all of this legal shit away and focus on HELPING him save himself, I’ll do it.

Has anyone been through this??? I hate he’s SO CONVINCED he’s going to jail for 1-3 years. The meth dealer is just trying to keep him trapped at his house for his own selfish reasons. It isn’t gonna go down this way and I wish he trusted me. I told him if he goes in there with crazy shit trying to put ME in jail like he’s been threatening, it’s gonna get messy real quick. They’re gonna see right through it which is gonna make him look bad, which is what I’m trying to avoid despite everything.

I just need good vibes or prayers. I don’t know what he plans to do... I just hope he doesn’t do anything drastic he cannot come back from 💔.

He needs help more than punishment.