Ive hit rock bottom 😢

ive been trying for over a year with my fiance. never had not even a faint. nobody who isnt trying as hard to have a kid as alot of us are, dont understand for a second how much stress, energy, and broken hearts go into what were trying to achieve. im sorry if this is the wrong group but i love this group. its so supportive and i love leaving little positive stickers on as many posts as i can if i see something. this is my 3rd time posting this picture. alot of people said it is faint. if so, this would be my first ever. i felt so happy. then came the negatives, and the clearblue always has that line, and so on. im crushed and confused and scared to take anymore. it got to the point where i got an ovulation test just so i can see 2 lines. i just want to know so bad, or just be put out of my misery. its draining my spirit.