What’s wring with me??

Question

Hi ladies. 
I’ve been wanting to talk to someone about this for a while but I have no one. I live in a state where I have no family and don’t really have many friends, just my husband. 
The problem is that we were TTC for 6 months and I wanted nothing more then to have a child and be pregnant. I am now 14 weeks pregnant and I DONT KNOW WHAT WRONG but I can’t seem to think positive about my baby 😭😭😭😭 I do love my baby I do but I feel no connection and I don’t feel excited. This is not normal for me when we were still TTC I would always daydream about how I excited I was that we were gonna try for a baby and hopefully fall pregnant. But now I no longer have those positive happy thoughts it’s like they all dispaered. I want to be excited again like I was :(
I also have bipolar type 1 and went off my medication when I got pregnant so I know that’s part of it but please other mamas out there help me get excited and feel happy again. Deep down I know I am I just need a little positives vibes I guess...
Thanks mamas 💛

Answer

Hey girl. You are not alone. ❤️ 
I didn’t really feel a solid connection until my boy was born. I know that probably sounds shocking to some, but it wasn’t really real until the baby was out in the world. I was worried that I wouldn’t have a strong connection with my baby, but it all changed when he came out. I have anxiety, I haven’t been on medication for about ten years-it’s been controlled with diet, exercise and change of social surroundings. When I was pregnant with my first though, I was very anxious all the time. I’m currently 22 weeks with our second and am feeling great mentally. 
Maybe you could have a discussion with your health care provider. It might be related to your pre-existing bipolar and the benefits of being on medication might outweigh the risks of not being on it.

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I was feeling like that at the beginning. I always thought that I was going to be super excited but once I got pregnant I realized that was not the case... I think I was scared (still am) that something was wrong with the baby. Everything changed for me on my 20 week anatomy scan. The baby is healthy and I found out it was a girl. It helped to know the gender (I had no preference) and it also helped to decide a name. I am feeling closer to the baby now. Also, when she started kicking was great. I am sure you will get there, sometimes it takes longer but it’s OK. Don’t feel guilty, as long as you love your baby, everything will be fine. Give yourself some time :)

Answer

I did see an article on this on here. it's normal to have doubts and fears, ups and downs... hormones deff don't help!

What’s wring with me??

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