Having a really tough time with my husband.

We’ve been seriously discussing getting pregnant for a while, but finally decided to try in December. It’s only been a couple months but I feel like we haven’t even started trying yet. My husband is 48 (I’m 38) but I’m having the hardest time getting him to... have sex with me??? We have what I would generally call a great sex life, maybe not as active as if he were younger, but still pretty damn active. 2xs a week on average, often more. Well, I’ve been planning for this week for over a month (I’m ovulating). He’s been planning along with me. This was the week we were really going to try. We were going to do it 4x’s between Sunday and Wednesday. He had cialis at the ready. Then, last Friday, he got.... the MAN COLD. So, guess what happens on Sunday. He took an Allegra d, knowing full well they make him unable to perform, and also knowing full well that we needed to start trying. We finally managed to do it on Monday, but it was rushed and we barely made it. Yesterday, nothing. I tried again this morning, and he got going and almost immediately he lost it and gave up. Then, when he left this morning, he said “it’s ok, we’ll just try again next month.” um, we’re still in the window!!! We could still do it today and tomorrow, according to Glow I’m ovulating tmrw. But it seems like he’s just given up on this month. As far as I know, he hasn’t even taken a cialis. He’s just said “I’m sick! I don’t feel like having sex!” He’s acting like sex is some chore all of a sudden, that I’m forcing him to do. I’m trying to be understanding that he’s sick, and that he has a hard time sometimes due to his age, but honestly we very rarely have issues like this. Worst of all, this I s making me feel terrible about myself, like I’m following him around trying to get him to have sex with me, and get me pregnant, when this was a well thought out decision that we made together. Up until this week, I would’ve said he was just as, if not more excited than I am, about having a baby. We both have kids from a previous marriage but we really wanted (I thought) to have one together. We have a stable, loving marriage and we both adore being parents. Now I’m just confused, and hurt, and this whole thing makes me want to pull away from him, which does the exact opposite of get me pregnant. 😔 If you’ve read this far, thanks for reading. I just really needed to tell someone. None of our families know we’re trying.