Fuck my Mom!

This is to vent. Honestly hate when someone agrees to help you and then takes advantage of it. For example staying with my Mom and she loves my son sooo much. he can kill me and she would be his alibi not even exaggerating the slightest. I mean I’m happy she loves him, but it’s coming to the point where I literally have no respect for her and vice versa. She doesn’t like when I discipline my child and if he is screaming crying yelling whatever. But I tell her I work (nights) and I’m woken up by my son screaming, crying and grunting saying “you hurt me” up and down the stairs. I’m so over it. Now before we get to judging. I’m in the process of finding us a new place to live but obviously it takes time. It was the plan to stay here and save and leave but I’m dying inside. My kids can’t cry or she loses her mind, but it’s different when she has them crying. I can’t raise my voice at my child but she can raise hers. Are you out your fucking mind! These kids came from me that’s where she needs to draw the line. I don’t physically harm my kids I just have a stern assertive voice sometimes I yell. I’m going to parenting classes on how to parent more positively and set appropriate rules but she makes it hard when she constantly goes against the rules I’ve set. Like letting my son sleep alone.. she always puts him to sleep and it’s always a struggle with them he’s always laughing not taking her seriously yelling running away. And I told her to leave him multiple times he’s old enough to go to bed on his own. He’s in elementary,and she just stays in the room. Even after I’ve told him to listen to her or I won’t let her put him to sleep. And she constantly corrects my fucking parenting in front of him which you NEVER DO to a parent trying to discipline. I fucking hate the bitch. I’m not perfect hell im calling my mom a bitch but I can’t fucking stand her. I feel like I worked so hard and I’m still stuck in a low fucking place. And she has a shovel digging me down even lower. She could fucking careless! At this point we’ve fist fought multiples. When my daughter was in my hands and I’m pregnant she’s thrown a stool at me tried to kick me and in my defence to protect my unborn and one year old I kicked her in hopes to block her. I’m just over it. Ive talked to her about changing some thing on how we communicate and she agrees then 24 hours it’s back to the same shit ! She’s a great help to a certain point but this is too fucking much. It’s depressing. I feel like she’s one of those power heads that know you have no where to go so they abuse their power. When I leave I’ll thank her and take a break and undo all the negativity she has brought in this. I’m literally crying because I feel like no one has gone through this and they say that’s your mom, but at this point this whole thing has made me lose respect for her as a parent.