What if....

Back story....my first born was a boy and he was born with Down’s syndrome and a heart defect and passed away 21 days after he was born. We had a girl a year later and she is our everything!! . I am 13 weeks pregnant and I am hoping so bad for a boy! I’m kinda to the point I don’t want to find out the sex because I don’t want to be disappointed. I know if we have another girl I will love her so much. But I just want my boy!

I just needed to vent and get that off my chest.