so im 24 i have one fucked up body type 1 bipolar disorder severe anxiety depression just over the top anger for no reasons but i refuse to take medication makes me throw up non stop so pills are a no go .. moving on to next issues can barely walk i am so out of breathe i gasp for air 247 like im suffocating and my legs swell you with these knots on my lower shins and then i cant walk at all and my legs become very stiff and throb with pain ... most recent issue my right hip butt cheek area has swollen up twice its size and its very noticeable drs says its a torn hamstring but i think its a tumor or something cuz it hurts when i sit and feels like something is in there..... idk what to do im broken