Today I started my period. I thought it could have been implantation bleeding (I hoped it was) but today it’s hard to deny that I am not pregnant.

We wanted it so badly. Husband was confidently on board this time which made me want it more. I probably should not have planned or thought about the life we would have had as a new family.

It’s hard to not be mad, upset, sad and not bitter. I feel like I can’t talk to many people because no one thinks we’ve been trying for “long enough”. Yes people ask when are you guys going to have a kid or when are you going to start a family.

So not only am I dealing with not being pregnant and the hurt and lose of that I also have to suffer through all the symptoms of a period. Feels kind of cruel.

Thought I would try and reach out rather than bottle this up. Thanks for having a place for me to vent and cope.