Freaking out!!

So I just found out the other day that I am pregnant with my second (first is 1.5yrs) but I do not know if I am even ready for another baby yet and totally freaking out! (I'm not one for abortion - to each their own, no judgement). We were using protection but not on BC as I've had problems with it in the past, so it's completely unexpected. So condom obviously had broke because well how else!? I honestly don't know what to even think right now and whether to be happy or sad or what! 😰😰

I feel guilty for feeling so upset about it because it's such a great thing but I honestly don't know how it's going to be and I am freaking out.