New to TTC and nervous

Hi all! My husband and I are TTC as of the beginning of Feb. I was on BC for 7 years with the last 2 month of it being the pill. I got off about a week and a half prior to when I should have ovulated. I know the chances of me being pregnant already are incredibly slim, but I can’t help but be hopeful and that scares me the most. I think I’ve had some symptoms but they could easily be PMS. AF due in two days, and I’m so nervous that I can’t bring myself to test early cause I don’t think I’ll react well to a BFN. How do you all deal with these jitters, butterflies, and feelings of anxiety?