My anxiety is ruining my life...
I just need to rant. I have no one to talk to. Not even my boyfriend gets it. When I try to explain to him he just says “that sucks” and “that’s life”.
I’m 24.
I live with my parents.
I owe them more than 10,000$ for bills I haven’t been able to pay and for college classes they’ve paid for.
I’m a really hard worker.
I like to stay busy and work hard.... when I’m at work.
But finding and keeping a job is really hard with my anxiety.
I’ve never held a job for more than ten months.
It’s really hard to get to work for me sometimes.
I get so anxious leading up to it.
This morning I almost called off because I started a second position at work “to-go’s” and my first Friday was astronomically horrific.
I ended up crying in the bathroom after this guys order got mixed up with someone else’s and he flipped and started screaming and cursing at me and my manager.
I was scared that today would be just as bad... but I made myself get up and go (25 minutes before I had to leave....).
It didn’t go as bad...
But that isn’t my problem.
My problem is my inability to get a second job.
The only reason I got this one is because my manager is also my cousin...
I feel like I will never ever ever be able to hold down a job and make enough money to pay off my bills, pay back my parents, save for a new car, computer and camera (I’m going to school, when I can afford to, for photography), and live independently and be able to support myself.
I’m drowning in debt and my anxiety literally makes it impossible.
It’s absolutely crippling.
I have no one to talk to about this.
My parents have just about had it with me and I want to move out to lessen the burden on all of us but I can’t afford it.
I have no way out.
None.
Okay.
Sorry for the rant guys.
I just have no outlet.
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