— Part 1, 2 & 3 should be on my profile —

It was there for a moment and then gone in an instant. After all the drama that had gone down, the tension and fear was still there. I still hadn’t mentioned a word to my parents about me possibly being a teen Mum. I thought I had already disappointed them enough by growing up so fast and not listening to them when they were trying to do what’s best for me. Then one night at around 11pm I woke up in the most agonising pain I’ve ever felt in my life. It was like period cramps but 100 times worse. I tried to yell out for my dad who was asleep in the lounge. No one heard me but my mum, she came into my room and said “what’s wrong, what is it Tyler!” I said “I just need help getting up, I need to go to the toilet.” She helped me out of bed and it felt like I couldn’t even stand, let alone walk without holding onto someone. The toilets only right next door to my room but I couldn’t even make it there. If no one was home, I think I would’ve had to crawl. (If anyone has felt this pain before please comment below!) I sat on the toilet and pushed what I thought was a normal bowel movement. But then as I looked into the toilet bowl there was dark red blood and tiny blood clot tissue. My alarm went off in my mind. My first thought was to cry but my mum was outside the bathroom door asking “what’s happening, you aren’t pregnant are you!!” — “NO!” I said quickly, trying to hold back the sound of sadness in my voice. She said “should I call the ambulance?” But by this time I think most of the work was done. The pain had settled and this is where it gets confusing. Personally, I’ve never heard of a story like mine. Where I kinda took care of everything on my own. I’d been on the toilet for about an hour just waiting for my tummy to settle and then blood to pass and these clots kept coming out. It wasn’t fun. And then because of my age, I didn’t want to go to the hospital and seek treatment afterward. I didn’t even second guess looking into the toilet bowl when I’d finished. But when I was almost about to flush I looked down and there was a tiny sac with possibly a little human inside and as inhumane as it might sound, I flushed without even taking a moment to realise what just happened. But after it all my body went straight back to normal, I was eating healthily, I had a moment of pause where I kinda had to process everything on my own because I kept it a secret for a very long time.

I almost escaped being under the radar until I started getting questioned. A few times my friends asked me what happened, I didn’t say. Then my ex’s sister and mother were asking, I just said “it didn’t work out, I’m not going to talk about it.” That was fine they never asked about it again. The father of my unborn seed didn’t even want to know and I didn’t end up telling him about it till almost 2-3years later. Eventually, everything died down and went back to normal. My ex was still seeing a new girl, I was single for a while and met different guys but haven’t been in a serious relationship for about 4 years now. It’s been around 7 years knowing and still being in contact with my ex partner. And my life was being messed with a whole lot, even to this day where I allowed this person back into my life.

This story was super personal, I’ve never spoken about it like this. If you have any stories similar upvote me or follow me for more on how I’ve been moving on and how I ended up keeping this toxic person in my life. —

Till next time, Tyler.