how disheartening is it?

The last 3 nights and even today (I took a nap because I'm so bloody drained lol) I've been having dreams of ridiculously positive tests and then getting vvvvvvvfl not getting any darker so I think I maybe having a chemical or I'm just so wishing for that bright positive that it's all I can think about even in my sleep! I wake up feeling amazing to then realising it was a dream and I feel like absolute crap again 😔 who's with me?