Hey, I had an abortion almost four months ago. Part of me really didn’t want to but, the situation I was in was very complicated. It was mostly the consequences of my actions that made it difficult for me to raise a baby at this period in time. On top of that, I’m young, and my parents didn’t know.. I felt like I was a monster because deep down, I felt relief in a way for dodging all the negative sides of becoming a mother in my circumstances, I hate me for feeling that way. But like I said, a big part of me really wanted to keep it.. I didn’t know what to do, I was scared and felt like I was cornered with no other way out

and it’s been a while now but everyday now I keep thinking about how things would be if I had kept it. Every time I come across a baby I can’t stop staring at it, and this feeling comes flooding my heart and it hurts. It’s like guilt and regret and pain and I start remembering all those cramps and all the blood that came after the abortion pills... and it breaks me because if I could go back in time I would do it differently

By know I would have been three months pregnant.. I can’t look at babies without wondering what mine could have looked like