My SO and I have decided not actively try for a baby,but not prevent it either. Basically, just let it happen when it happens. At least,that's what he thinks. I'm still checking CM and position, <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android">tracking ovulation</a>, all that. I've just taken the stress away from his side. Every two weeks I'm still symptom spotting, driving myself crazy. As much as I want to just go with the flow, I can't. I've even started working out as my distraction, nothing works. I normally ovulate a little earlier than the app suggest, so my TWW is actually almost three. AF is due tomorrow, but this past week I've had clear stretchy CM and my cervix has stayed high and soft. Usually my cervix stays a little firm after O and dips up and down,but not really high. My CM is usually thick and white and eventually dries up a bit a few days before AF. My breasts always swell and feel tender a few days as well. This month they've only gotten bigger,but not by much. I've even had the stomach bug about a week after O. Chalked it up as the flu or food poisoning. Then last week had a horrible upset stomach after eating some chicken tenders. I've even craved sweet fruits. I was so sure this was my month. But today,I can just feel the start of AF preparing for her visit. I'm tired of each month getting my hopes up for nothing. SO and I have decided that if nothing sticks this month, then I'm going on BC. My appointment is for tomorrow. I give my props to you ladies continuing to do this month after month. But after four months, I can't take it anymore. I'm tired of all the pregnancy posts on FB,waiting for my turn. I wish I had the strength you women do. Baby dust to you all.