abuse

Okay i need advice, I'm 16 I will be 17 next month and to put it in simple terms my mom blames me for my step dad of 12 years raping me at 13 and jas been extreamly emotionally abusive since, and two years ago she met a guy byron and has sex with him whenever im in the house where i can here and tells me to suck it up its her house she can if she wants. And she says im a dissapointment, she wishes she never had me, I'm disrespectful im all these other really nasty things I don't really want to post and she does it to my 23 year old brother too. I have really bad depression and she laughs at it okay, but the things she says is to the point i dont want to live anymore. But i want to I want a family i want to grow old all that but my mind is telling me no because of her. I cant get emancipated because if i get denied everything will be a thousand times worse. I live in Idaho, could I just leave and the cops won't make me go back? I have a stable job im looking at apartments and i think i can do it, or I can try to move in with a friend but i don't want them in any trouble for taking. me in. I'm honestly scared for my life. Please dont contact police, i dont know what she would do but can someone give me advice?