Everyday I cry at least once. I work retail and am constantly seeing pregnant women and babies... I can't go on any form of social media without seeing a newborn baby or people flaunting their bumps. You wouldn't believe how many people I've unfriended in the past few weeks. My heart is so sad...a girl I work with was due A DAY before me and watching her bump grow and knowing mine should be too crushes me. I'm so heartbroken. I don't want to hang out with friends or go out and do anything. All I want to do is sit at home and cry... When I was pregnant before we found out we were miscarrying, my SO asked me why I wasn't getting as excited as he was about the baby, and I told him if you get to happy, god will see that and take whatever it is away because he doesn't like it when people are too happy. And surely enough he took my baby. I really don't think he's ever going to let me have a baby because he knows how happy it would make me. And heaven forbid I be happy for once in my life... waiting for better days...