Mother doesn't fully understand.

Im going to be straightforward in the fact that I've had depression for about 4 years, and I self harm as well. Recently, I had a breakdown because my depression started to effect my academics. It was a lot for me because my academics is the only thing going for me. The way I see it is, if I hate my personality and looks, then at least I'll have my academics going for me.

But even in the previous years, my depression never effected my school work. I felt terrible, but I kept my feelings in a separate area. But now I can't stand it anymore. All my grades are dropping in all my classes, my depression got worse due to some stuff thats too long to get into.

So at this point I realized that enough was enough and decided to tell my mother about it.

Now, as a little background, I have a pretty bad relationship with my mother. It could be a lot worse, but we yell at each other all the time and her favourite thing to say to me is, "What did I ever do to you?". Buuut I'm not close to my father at all, so I knew my mother was the only choice.

We talked yesterday, and I never cried more in my life. She said she was going to get me therapy but she still doesn't understand fully.

She thinks that I've only *recently* been depressed. She also doesn't believe that I have depression. She keeps saying stuff like "You don't have depression. You're just in a funk at the moment. You're a teen, after all." Or "Do you really think you need therapy? You're stronger than this, you know."

So... it just kinda hurts that she thinks I'm exaggerating my depression, and doesn't know the full extent. I tried to hint that I've had for years and all she said was, "If you were really like this for that long, your grades would've suffered a lot sooner."

I really just need some advice on how to let her know that its a lot more serious than she thinks. It just really hurts that she's kind of belittling me and I dont really know what to do.