so today my husband's triplet brother is welcoming home a brand new baby girl while we lost our baby at 20 weeks in December.. I would love to be happy for them but they have not made any good choices during this pregnancy and for this baby.. it hurts losing something you want so badly especially when those around you take it for granted. I hope they treat and love her the way she deserves.. I know I would..

also, I saw a rainbow driving home today and hoped it was a sign.. took a pregnancy test and it was negative.. only 8dpo so I'm praying there's still a chance.. don't know how much more I can take..

if you made it this far thanks for listening! 💕