i woke up this morming feeling like it was so hard to breathe for at least a half hour i didnt know why nothing was helping usually that goes away within a miunute but this was different, i spoke to my mother later on and she told me my great grandmother passed around 6:30am thats exactly when it was hard for me to breathe. I'm so sad about it, she was 90 when she passed this morning. she's been wanting to go for 30 years but it finally happened and I can hardly bare it. my husband is trying to be there for me but I wouldn't expect him to understasnd because he doesn't understand my relationship with her since I haven't seen her in years. my mother is a wreck about it but I feel i have to stay strong for her when it comes to stuff like this. I don't really like showing my emotions because nobody around me understands. I don't live with or near my family just my husband's family. I just wanted to share it on here because I don't want to post on Facebook, I don't like people I know knowing my business or feeling sorry for me, at least on here nobody knows me and I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me in a pity way but sometimes I just feel i need someoknes condolences especially for the past 2 years I've been so depressed and going through a lot of stuff becsud e life keeps dealing an a crappy hand. every day I just want to break down and cry and lock myself in my room and avoid everyone but I put on a strong face for my 1 year old all day since I'm a stay at home mom. I don't what him to kk now somehting is wrong. I feel like I'm trying to be too strong but to be honest I feel it's for a good reason since nobody understands, my problems just get brushed away whenever I have them except by my husband but he's not good at consoling. I just feel like this was the last straw for me. I just want to cry so badly but I never have a second to myself.