I’ve been struggling with something for about four years. I am disgusted by the thought of consuming anything with calories, obsessed with burning it all off, and constantly attempting to throw up. I just am so revolted by the way I look that it consumes my every thought and makes me feel depressed and lost.

I’ve even cut myself multiple times, hoping that the pain will remind me to do better, to eat less and stop being such a fat piece of shit.

Anyone know what this is? I hate it, whatever it is.