Okay so I think I like sex I mean I watch stuff to get aroused but when it comes to the actual act it hurts. I’m not only in pain the two times that I’ve done it almost immediately I’m not into it anymore. I don’t enjoy it I think it’s the guys I’m a college student the guys I choose weren’t great choices. They weren’t bad guys I just think I’m not the one night type of girl. I’ve tried my friends all think I’m uptight but I just can’t continue this way I’m never satisfied after and I always feel crappy afterwards. I have been sexual assaulted so maybe that’s why I don’t enjoy sex. Although before that I didn’t enjoy it I just feel unattached and then I feel nothing. So I fake it I don’t want to but I don’t want the guys to feel bad because it’s probably just me.