Being that I am gay, it makes this process so much harder. I feel like if I were heterosexual, I’d be able to enjoy the process of trying to conceive more (not sexually) because there’s so much stress and planning trying to conceive through insemination. Given that I am paying for sperm and not able to just plan sex, it makes every attempt so much more crucial. I have to track my cycle to a tee and plan the use of every last drop of sperm. It feels impossible some days. I know there is stress and planning for everyone trying to conceive, but it’s just different on this side. I can’t just have sex everyday hoping for it to take like I want to. I have a few select days out of the month for insemination and that’s it. I’m ashamed to admit it, but the difficulty with this process makes me resent myself for being the way I am. Can anyone understand how I feel?