Hi everyone.

I am eighteen years old and I have a feeling that I've made a mistake. I can't seem to figure whether or not is actually a mistake. Please help me sort this out.

Four months ago, I met a guy online. He is six years older than me, and is such a sweetheart. Before meeting up for my very very first date (I have never had a my first kiss nor first sex before meeting him), we talked about sexual stuff. I am a very sexual person but was never just open about it. Just like the usual things men and women talk about mostly over text (sexually).

We met up and he was great. We talked a lot and he brought me home. Before getting out of his car, I gave him a peck on the lips and I kind of regretted it afterwards. But it was just so sudden, didn't even think about it.

Fast forward, we met up the next week again. I went to his place and I lost my first kiss to him. We made out. He asked for my permission every time we try something new. I was so into the phrase "try everything" so here I am.

Then a month later, we had sex. I was prepared. He didn't push me to do it. He clearly asked. I liked it. But I feel like I did something wrong. I did things too quickly with him. We agreed to be just friends for now, since we both are not ready for a relationship.

I actually was depressed all February because I really liked him and being friends was not enough for me. All the guilt and regret I'm feeling is killing me. He is still talking to me after all the things we've done. He still cares.

But why are my friends telling me he is a fuckboy and used the "friends" label just to keep me going and have sex with him? I am so confused.

Please help me with this.