I just need somebody

I’m just so down you guys. I’m 10 days late. FRER completely negative... no symptoms at all so not surprised. I had 3 miscarriages. I’m just so frustrated. I feel selfish... It’s getting to the point when me and my SO go out to eat I end up getting ‘down in the dumps’ when I see families with their babies/children. I can not stand sitting in my OBGYN while pregnant women are all around me just complaining about the gift they have inside of them, knowing I’m only there for pregnancy loss testing. My SO tried to be supportive but he is a religious man, we both are.. but his opinion is everything is in gods hand which it is... but being I work in the medical field I know it’s not just that, it’s also SCIENCE in it. I keep things to my self because I don’t really want to argue with him. We don’t have sex a lot I don’t know if it’s the stress of TTC of what. Just down ):