Four days !

So four days late this month we have been TTC since November. Naturally I get excited omg one day late,two days this can’t be three days thank god ,four days I can take a test soon and not feel “it’s just to early” or “I don’t produce high enough levels”. No this maybe the month come on baby 👶🍼!! And then today comes wake and guess who came to visit almost made 5 days late but no just a evil joke told by Aunt Flo . So I cry 😭 I mean ugly cry and my husband of course holds me he understands I have been on a baby kick for over a year and never thought we would have trouble he asks if we should each get check starting with him 😊he is so sweet I could only imagine how hard it is for a man to admit he may have a problem . My one question is why does everyone say “don’t stress it will happen “ I understand it will happen but when your hopes are up almost 5 days late how do you not get disappointed when you see you have started. That’s when I get upset and this is honestly the first time it all felt right. I don’t mean to feel crushed but I do.