pregnant women

I think pregnancy is beautiful and amazing and all but....the thought of being pregnant makes me want to die and I'm SO SCARED of pregnant women like it could be my best friends mom and I'm scared to get anywhere near her and her belly like if I touch a pregnant belly I fell like I'm going to vomit I NEVER wanna be pregnant but I LOVE BABIES and I might even adopt one day but I never wanna "have" kids...im I horrible for this? edit:i know ALOT about pregnancy trust me my mom is even going to be a midwife and I have studied right along her because I help her study it's not that.