bf getting me off

ok so my bf and i have been together almost a year, and he rarely gets me off... i usually have to fake it. i have a couple of times with him but guys can’t seem to get me off consistently. he is the first guy to actually attempt to get me to orgasm and is the first to succeed. i’m not complaining because we have a really great sex life. i feel like i can only cum when i’m in control, he always feels bad when he can’t do it. anyways how can i let go enough so he can make me cum consistently?? i have been raped and i feel like that is part of it.