Venttttttt

Here’s what’s been going on.... I’ve been going through a lot and I need to just let it all out. GRAB YOUR SNACKS CAUSE ITS GOING TO BE A LONG ONE

#1. My parents are divorcing- Now I’m not upset at this because my parents happiness comes first (plus I’m grown, I’m 20 and I’m the youngest so they don’t have to worry about their children for the most part if you know what I mean). My Dad hasn’t been treating my mother right and that’s on him but I kept telling everyone the type of person he was since I was 12. My father and his side doesn’t know how to love properly AT ALL. I even fought one of my cousins over Thanksgiving Break... lord. But my brothers and everyone isn’t taking it well but I am cause my mom deserves to be treated like the beautiful Queen she is! It hurts me to see my mom going through stuff like this but she’s the strongest woman I know. Am I wrong for not freaking out about this like everyone else is ? Am I biased? Btw, he’s not even helping my mom and I with my tuition or with bills or anything (Tuition is $30,000 per year).

#2. My boyfriend is angry and Suicidal- Yes.... my boyfriend has depression and suicidal tendencies . We expressed our feelings not to long ago and this came out... I’ve dealt with men like this but I’m tired of going through the same cycle with these men. Imma be there for him of course but lord it worries me. One thing he said that keeps replaying in my head is “Not a day goes by when I don’t think about killing myself”... What am I suppose to do ? So any moment I could lose you unexpectedly ?? We’ve been through a lot already and I don’t know what to do right now with this. He’s a gentleman and a sweetheart and all trust❤️ but his words are making me worry.

#3. COLLEGE - I’m a Sophomore in college studying Business Entrepreneurship and BOY THIS IS STRESSFUL 😭 I have a lot of things to do but with my mind being cluttered like this, my motivation is low 🙄 of course imma get my work done (honor roll 💯) but it’s hard to get started when you feel so low. But girrrlllll these teachers finna give me my ones I swear 😂 I have this one teacher that thinks he can say whatever to anybody and I’m like “sir.... I’m not the one” . Like he will REALLY GET DECKED 😂😭 but other than that classes are alright lol

Anyways, there’s more but I’ll cut it here. I’m just overwhelmed at the moment and needed to get it out.