hi ladies! so I'm Sara, I spent 3 years as a size 20, and I'm now a size 12-14 depending on bloating and brand etc. I lost weight after getting out of an abusive relationship and into a healthy one. I had gotten down to a 9 but holiday weight and birth control changes got me gaining a bit. anyway, I'm struggling so hard with my weight. ive suffered from anorexia before but went into Binge eating disorder straight after that. since losing the weight, I feel like no matter how much I lose isnt enough. and I'm struggling necause I idolize big women. i think they are beautiful. I'm struggling so hard with self love and I just need some advice on how to love myself because no matter what I do, I don't. I'm attaching a few pics, please e leave comments, questions and advice below. i need it all.