I’m not going to lie at all in this post. I used to think I had everything figured out. That is, before my mentally abusive ex. My “bestfriend” joined a class w me and the first WEEK of being there she gets something I work my ass off to even get and she got it. She literally is always one up from me and I feel like I can’t even call her a bestfriend if I feel that way towards her when I’m the one who told to to even be in the class. I just can’t be by myself in anything & I just want to be good . I just feel like I’m not me anymore & I know I sound selfish but I just want something in my life I’m the best at ya know? Without someone coming in and taking it from me . I mean she gets the guys, the stuff I’ve wanted, the friends, the face, the body. Everything. I’m so jealous it burns me from the inside talking to her.