Afraid to get pregnant after miscarriage.

Had miscarriage five days ago. Still experiencing symptoms. We want to start trying as soon as my dr says it’s ok but also terrified to do this again. Is the excitement still there if you are blessed enough to get pregnant after a miscarriage or will I always just feel as afraid and scarred as I do now? I can’t imagine feeling as excited as we did the first time. Will it all just feel tainted or will we somehow feel the excitement again? It’s so hard to see past the way I feel in this moment.