Anxiety bc of intrusive thoughts

Am I the only one who feels like this? I know anxiety can make you feel alone n I definitely feel alone.

Background I have anxiety, Ocd, depression, hypochondria, and insomnia

Well I’ve been realizing since about November maybe I’ve had this fear that I’m gonna like kill my mom or my brother in my sleep. I’m literally terrified ima do that while I’m sleeping n I’ll wake up to them dead bc of me. I don’t have insurance atm so I don’t know what to so😭 I’d never want to act out in these thoughts. My therapist (when I had one) said she’s pretty sure I don’t have schizophrenia or psychosis bc the way I act, I don’t believe in crazy things like being pregnant with Jesus or something. I told her I’m scared I’m gonna hurt someone in my sleep n she said it’s my OCD causing these intrusive thoughts. She said if I had schizophrenia or psychosis I would of wanted to hurt animals, and I would if acted on it when I was younger. That if I didn’t do something bc the voices in my head told me to do my mom would die or something. Stuff along those lines. N this is my first time in my 20 years of begging alive that I’ve had this intrusive thought in my head since November and it’s only ever at night when I think about it.

I’m scared I’m gonna lose touch with reality and go crazy like on a rampage or something. I keep telling myself “your not crazy bc if you were crazy you would of actually hurt them, and your not crazy bc your self aware and you know when you need help”

I’m just curious if you have intrusive thoughts how do you handle it?