So last year I had a miscarriage at around 6 weeks. The pregnancy wasn’t planned but me and my boyfriend were coming around to the idea and even getting excited at the thought of being parents. And then I started bleeding one morning and that was it, our baby was gone. No scan pics to look at, no memory of hearing a heartbeat to remember. We were devastated. Fast forward to nearly a year on and although my bf says he does think about it every so often he has got over things where as I still can’t forget. Whenever I see a pregnant lady or a baby on the tv my heart hurts for our baby. My bf is amazing and he gets that I’m like this, he just deals with it in a different way.

Anyway ever since I found out I was pregnant I have kept my first test that I took. It was so faint before I took more conclusive tests but I knew that second line was there! My bf thinks I need to get rid of the test as whenever I open my drawer it’s there and it reminds me of what happened. I can’t seem to let it go because then to me it’s like nothing ever happened. I purposely keep it to remind myself. My question is, do you other women keep your tests from babies you’ve miscarried or those precious healthy baby’s you’ve carried to term?

The photo quality isn’t great and it is darker in person although it was so faint to begin with it isn’t much better than what it was back then!

My heart goes out to all my fellow women who have miscarried baby’s, it really is the most devastating thing💔