Feel like I'm losing it ladies

April

Ugh. Need a vent session. I've been super sick and had to get an xray done on my chest. So ..obviously they do a pregnancy test. Soo the tech. asks the oh so wonderful question..is there a chance you could be pregnant? I immediately and hopefully say we'll yes. The doctor then tells the tech. pregnancy test was done and it is negative. Tech. turns to me and says "OK so no there's no chance that your pregnant " OUCH! the words "no chance " rang in my ears for what felt like forever. I finished up and teary eyed told my other half. he squeezed my hand and said maybe it's to early...if not we get to keep trying. He's the sweetest. I feel like the disappointment just keeps getting harder. (we've been ttc for about 9 months & got a false positive after 3) blah. Any way though..I normally start on the 20th. ovulated late and now I'm supposed to start on the 26th according to the app. Am I crazy for being hopeful that I didn't start on the 20th ?!