confession

no need for rude comments. just trying to get this off my chest. I reconnected with an old friend of mine from a few years ago. he lives almost 3,000 miles away! We really got to talking and it's been amazing catching up and getting to know him again but there is only one problem...I am, all of a sudden, INSANELY attracted to him! I mean like I think about him more than I should, I fantasize about him, and I absolutely love it when he flirts with me! This is a problem because I'm married! I would NEVER cheat on my husband but I fantasize about what it would be like to have a threesome with my hubby and my friend! I enjoy the flirting and dirty talk that my husband no longer gives me but my friend does! I feel so guilty for liking the attention I'm getting from my friend and I'm trying to figure out why I am feeling these feelings! I love my husband, he is the only man I have ever been with, we are TTC but having troubles, he is military so we don't get a ton of time together but when we are together it's usually amazing! I live him so much and I was always taught that when you love someone you shouldn't have feelings for someone else! so I am super confused because my husband is my world but I'm having other feelings!