Miscarriage

Yesterday I was 4 weeks and 3 days pregnant. I found out last Friday and had positive tests all week including one yesterday morning. I woke up and started bleeding in the morning. I cried and I knew that I was going through my first pregnancy loss. I went to work and it continued. It wasn’t heavy bleeding and it wasn’t spotting. I called the doctor and made an appointment. They drew blood and did a urine sample. The bleeding continued through the night and today. I had hope that maybe I was one of the women who bleeds during her pregnancy. But last night I did notice my sore breasts and tender nipples didn’t really hurt anymore. I told my Husband that I didn’t feel pregnant anymore and he told me to just be patient and that he loved me.

I got the call today a few hours ago that I had a very early pregnancy loss. My hcg levels were only 31 and I was supposed to be around 500. The pain and hurt is indescribable. My husband is in so much pain too. This is our first pregnancy and our first miscarriage all within one week. There is nothing that I can be happy about right now. If anything I am thankful for it being so early instead of the pain of losing our baby later on or a still birth. And I am thankful for the chance to experience a positive pregnancy test only two months after trying to conceive.

I loved this tiny baby that was inside of me.

My heart is so broken and my tears will not stop.

All I know is that I want to be there for anyone who has gone through this and be someone to talk to as a support.