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Is it bad that I want to lose my virginity to someone I hardly know. I mean as knowing that your feelings won’t be hurt if things don’t work out because you weren’t in a relationship or even friends with the person. Please don’t call me dumb or anything of the sort. All my friends tell me I wouldn’t “ understand ” because I’m a virgin. Its not a bad thing or anything but they introduce as you know the “ virgin”. This one time my bestfriend and a couple friends and I were talking to some other people. She totally excluded me from the groups conversation saying “ oh she wouldn’t understand because she’s a virgin, she has no clue what we’re talking about”. They all laughed like it was a bad thing. Its like she was making a mockery of me. I know being a virgin isn’t a bad thing but it feels like it sometimes. So if I’d lose it they would just stop doing that. I don’t really know why I’m posting this just a lot of late night thinking right now. I hope I don’t sound crazy or dumb.