trying is hard....

Trying to conceive is the hardest thing I have ever done...I have so many highs and lows. I finally went to see the Inferitily specialist and after I left the office I was full of anxiety and stress. but hopeful oh so hopeful, to finally be getting answers....just to have my heart broken when I found out my insurance won't cover any of it....it blows my mind how they will pay to end a life but not to help us start one. After 5 almost 6 years of not preventing I'm given up trying. I'm done hurting, being mad, sad, heart broken every month. I'm done testing, checking this and that, done temping, done with opks...I'm so done with it all! I know we will get our baby one way or another. So for now I'm focusing on my husband and spending time with him alone still hoping a little one makes its way into our family to make it compete.