I am at a loss

Sarah • Keep smiling and enjoying what you have. Keep trying to be the best you can. Sarah!

I had a surgery in October that made me go through a depression. Because of the depression I didn’t want to have sex because I felt unattractive. My husband talked to me about the fact that I wasn’t meeting my wifely duties so he asked if it was alright if he got the attention elsewhere. This conversation took place in December. I agreed and left it at that. I got an email today from someone saying that my husband had been with her friend and she wanted me to be aware. I at first ignored it, but then it started bugging me. I did something that I am not proud of... I looked through his phone and sure enough these conversations with multiple women took place in November!! In one of the conversations the girl asked if we were still together and he stated no! I don’t know what to do. I told him that I didn’t want him seeing anyone else because I cannot feel comfortable. I don’t know what to do.