Falling in love with my bestfrend πŸ’

*im in a relashonship and have been

for 2 years but he is only nice half the time and when I say somthing he gets mad verry mad and yealls as loud as he can and sometimes puts his hands on me it been a awhile though even if my 5lbsI dog is in the room my dog is my everything*... anyways i have known my bestfrend for years he has always loved me im just worried becuse we live 4 hours away from echother and I'm also worried becuse I would be his first adalt mature relashonship and I'm not sure if he is ready his mom and dad are close to me as well. (im sorry for not using punctuation I don't know how)