So my SO and I have been having sex for awhile , it’s hard to say how long since we are in a LD relationship.

He started watching porn at a young age and is kinda addicted to it .

We both watch it when we are away from eachother and to be honest his mind is so controlled by it and it has sort of Twisted the way he perceives sex.

The only reason I watch it is because he isn’t around to have sex with he lives 4000 miles away . I’d rather be with him then watch porn .

Now that we are together for awhile in person it has been great and sex is awesome. We’re having some worries about my family and his and how we are gonna make this work because we know we are meant to be .

He has worries about meeting a certain member of my family because they aren’t super friendly and he has high anxiety .

One night when we were having sex, it was taking him a lot longer to come , I thought it was because he holds it for awhile to please me and that was part of it , then I started to believe he was loosing interest in me physically. Like I’m boring or unattractive, because he couldn’t come , he comes every time .

I sucked him off and he was gonna wank himself off and put it in side when he was about to come , because we are trying for a baby.

I did come and I always feel really bad like empty If I can’t make him come . Awhile after that I went up to bed and he stayed down stairs because he wasn’t tired and was just on the phone looking at eBay or whatever . I was sleeping when he finally got in to the room , he was making noise so I asked him what he was doing and I looked harder and saw he was changing his underwear and I realized he came in the other pair. And I said “You came didnt you?” And he laughed so I took that as a yes . I was kinda hurt that I couldn’t make him do that and he had to be alone to do that , I thought there was something wrong with me . I also thought that was good so he would be tired and sleep with me and get up at 10 am instead of 4pm but he went downstairs to play video games . The next day he told me that he came to a porn video of a threesome and that pissed me off honestly . I don’t mind him watching when I’m away at home and he’s home since we can’t have sex but when I’m there it’s very degrading it makes me feel unwanted .

Since he is used to dirty talk and stuff like that and me saying things to make fun of him and I feel like he’s never into sex when I’m not mean to him in. Bed or saying dirty things .

What do you All think