Am I crazy? This isn’t fair.

Sarah • I`m 28 yrs old and am working on my master`s degree in music therapy. I teach middle school English, Geography, and Choir. I also coach basketball and volleyball. In my off time, I teach private music lessons 🎼 and also sell Cristy Cali Jewelry 💎

So my life has recently gotten super crazy. My boyfriend of almost 3 years is in the Coast Guard and just got orders for Puerto Rico effective June 1. So over the past 2 weeks we have been talking a lot about marriage, which we have talked about a little in the past, but more as if it was something far in the future. So he has been saying he wants to get married now before he has to go to PR and wants me to go with him. I got super excited about marrying him and really got my hopes up. Now we can’t agree on anything and he is being so stubborn. He just wants to go to a court house and not even do a wedding, but my only dream for a wedding has always been that my dad (who is a pastor) officiates my wedding. That’s literally the only thing i care about in regards to the process of getting married. But he won’t go for it and is actually being kinda rude about it. And he hasn’t officially asked me to marry him, so I’m worried i got way ahead of myself and that now he is having doubts. I’m so stressed because we are now on this crazy fast timeline and he expects me to uproot my whole life, quit my job, and leave all my family and friends to go to a place where i don’t speak the language and i was 100% supportive of his wants, regardless of how hard it’ll be on me. But he can’t even look past the one thing I’ve dreamed about my whole life and just let me have my dad officiate a wedding for us? Am i being unreasonable? This is not how i want to start a marriage...