Sobbing in the grocery store..................šŸ˜­

After 17 months of trying (month three with good healthy Sperm finally-my husband had varicoceles removed) I got a pregnancy test when i got cold Meds. The checkout lady was quite the whole time then asked is this a good thing or a bad thing? I said oh it would be good we have been trying for a really long time. I started to walk away and she goes ....."hey, do you believe in god?" Talk to him. Tell him. Yep I started balling. I think I needed that. Once again the test was negative. Here is to hoping there is a 2019 birth year baby. On to cycle 4 or 18 however you wanna dice it. This is never fair or enjoyable but I can only hold onto the hope that god sees my hearts desires.