So before I say anything, I will point out that I am very very very fortunate because hubby and I do have a beautiful amazing wonderful little girl. She’s 2 1/2, well 3 this June, she’s hilarious, fun, inspiring- she’s my miracle.

It took us over 18 months to conceive with her, and at the time I had just been diagnosed with endometriosis. So at my first ultrasound, when they saw the cysts I had, I’ll never forget the tech saying “Wow, I’m surprised it only took you this long”.

I had an emergency c-section with her and was advised to wait 18 months before trying. We started again when she was 15 months because I knew it wouldn’t be quick. I just didn’t realize it would be this slow.

Our insurance doesn’t cover fertility treatments at all- I’m currently fighting a procedure I had done for just the endometriosis pain because they equate it to fertility (assholes).

I went ahead with having the day 3 hormone testing done (just got that bill- $900?????) to check my LH, FSH and Estradiol. Results came back that I am indicative of lowered ovarian reserve.

For the last several cycles I’ve been taking progesterone for days 14-AF (2 MC’s in 2017), Vitex, Tribulus, fertility multi, and using preseed.

This past cycle I’ve never cried so hard as when AF came. It just felt like my fate was written in stone.

I just reached out to an acupuncturist, and I’ll give that a go (had it in the past for something unrelated and it is magic), but beyond that I have no options I can afford.

I am ok being blessed with my little girl if that’s all this life allows because she is more than worth it. I just wish she had a sibling because I know I’d never trade my sisters for anything.

Wondering if anyone has gone through similar and been successful with having another baby.

Sorry for the novel, I’m like blubbering through tears here trying to wrap it up 😬😪😞