kinda Happy buy sad

I've been getting weird vibes and signs I was pregnant. (which is crazy cause I took all my pills in perfect time this month) I was talking with my manager and she said her first daughter she had taken every pill on the dot and still got pregnant, and said I should check with a pregnancy test.

it was negative, and so was the second and my boyfriend and I are obviously relived but I was a little sad at the same time. I kinda want a baby and obviously now was a bad time but I'm not confident there's going to be a good time either.