can't explain how I'm feeling right now.

I'm know both tests are negative. my period was 8 days late and I had a positive test at 4 days late. doctor confirmed I was pregnant with a test. then at 8 days late I started bleeding ( nothing heavy and no clots) . doctor couldnt do a scan as he said 5 weeks was too early to see anything. told me to test again near the end of the week if it was positive then he would book a scan if negative then I have miscarried 😢 now I really don't know what to do I'm not sure I want to try any more because the heart ache and stress I have felt has been too much and I've still had to go to work and be a mum to my 2 beautiful kids and it's hard when all I want to do is cry 😔😔😔