Feeling alone

Does anyone who has miscarried ever felt all alone even though every one keeps saying “You’re not alone”? I just wish I could talk to God. Like, why does this have to be my reality? Why can’t I have a chance at a healthy, normal pregnancy? My Husband has been such a rock for me, and I want to cry to him, but sometimes I hide it because I know he is hurting too. But tonight, I just want to cry, let this all out, and be held.