I’m not really looking for advice or sympathy. I just want to tell someone how I feel it’s seems easier talking to strangers than my own family.

My daughter is one her dad has met someone else from work I found the messages on his phone. I am absolutely devastated. I love him more than anything in the world. I always knew I loved him more than he loved me. I know I can’t make him love me or want to be with me but I never wanted my family to be torn apart they way it has been. At the moment I’m really bitter and I don’t want him to see our daughter. I know that’s wrong but I’m just so angry and sad. I’m also scared to be on my own. My house doesn’t feel like a home anymore not without him. I’m scared to let him see her I fear he won’t bring her back and there will be nothing I can do about it. My world has come crushing down and I didn’t see it coming. It physically hurts everyday. All I do is sit in my house with my baby and cry. I can’t go out. I don’t want to be in this house anymore it’s not the same. I know il feel better eventually but at the minute everything is so raw and I just keep playing it over and over in my head .